HECK!!

I am so FUCKING sad now! I don’t know what it is with me but I’ve realized how bitchy life keeps being with me “Fucking karma” I don’t know what I did in my past life that I am paying it this way. I mean it freaking sucks when you are just trying to be a nice man, and just trying to do things right… nothing comes out the way it is supposed to…

I think that it is stupid that the people you love the most is the one that can hurt you the worst! oh yeah...

I am trying to face depression and tough it up, but sometimes it feels like you have a 100 lbs potato bag in your back trying to make you just go from bad to worst…

I have a second job now, that’s what I wanted to kind of help me with my not so secret financial problems… it helps financially but I don’t know if the stress that this is causing me is making me loose hair and just feel VERY tired every day…

Listen all of you… I am writing in here because it is the only way I can express what I feel and it is the only way I can get my frustrations out, I know no one is reading anyway so no offense intended for nobody… I’ll be praying for the positive energy of the earth to come back to me and help me drop the 100 lbs bag of potatoes I have in my back FOR EVER!!

o_o’”

YURIDIA

No puedo creer! POR FIN!!! El gran esperado regreso de mi cantante favorita de los ultimos tiempo, YURIDIA Su nuevo disco estara a la venta el 5 de Diciembre en US, Ella es la Mejor!!! :0p

FLASH NEWS!!! FLASH NEWS!!

After much deliberation and after much thinking about it… I have decided to move! Hehehe Yeap! You heard me (ok! read me) the family that was living downstairs (basement) of my house moved out and I have always wanted to have a bigger space for myself and to live by myself, well it seems that is going to be possible now, my parents offered me the place and I accepted! I am so excited because I have my own kitchen, and own bathroom, and own living room and best of all my friends are going to be able to visit anytime they want! Yoo Hoo!! Talking about which Stephanie is coming from San Francisco to visit and she would be able to stay home with me oh man I can’t get better! Ok that’s a small update… PEACE PEOPLE!!! XOXOXOX

My Pics... My "ART"

Lights in the city...
Lights in my car...
My car stereo...
My car mirror...
I love this one!

I am very much in love…

Sometimes I come home and think about a lot of daily stuff that happens around my life. Like today I was thinking in how much I am still in love with Victor. I don’t know what it is but my heart beats really hard when I think about him, his face, the kind words he tells me, and the way he takes care of me when I get sick (lately to often). The other night I got sick and I was waking up during the night lots of times and even though I tried not to make any sound so that I wouldn’t wake him up, he would wake up anyway and in a worried way he would ask me “are you ok Puchito?” I know he doesn’t realize this but by him only asking me that he made me feel a lot better.

This morning I got up from bed and I saw him sleeping so quiet and so beautiful. I don’t know what it is and I don’t know how to explain it, but something in my heart over flows and I stare at him and all I can say in my mind is “Victor, I love you with all my heart” is a huge feeling that almost makes me cry, is something so beautiful, a feeling I will remember for ever.

My Other Half!

My awesome projects!

I am very happy. I have been doing a lot of new projects at work and as result of that I got a really good evaluation. First I was literally in charge of organizing my work’s annual health fair and let me tell you that it was really stressful to be calling people, presenters, doing publicity, sending PSA’s (public service announcements) and just making sure that everything was going to be ok with the health fair. Now you might think that I’m just exaggerating by saying that I was the solely organizer of such an important event but I actually was mainly because a coworker and organizer of the same event decided to take one week off the two weeks before the event. Anyway I was very satisfied with all of the positive comments and remarks that participants as well as presenters had over me.

Another project I had to do is make the computer lab I’m running much better. I had to install a network version of some pretty nice ESL (English as second language) software and because I don’t have experience with network administration I though it would be a good idea to hired a “professional” and so I did, but the problem was that I hired a guy that spoke only Spanish and even though I speak Spanish fluently all of the knowledge I have in computers is (really) in English so when I was explaining things to him I knew only computer terms in English so it was kind of complicated but not only that, at the end IT WAS ME WHO PUT THE NETWORK UP AND RUNNING! Can you believe it?
Anyway my supervisor was happy with the results…

Ok and the last project I am working is I AM MAKING A MOVIE!!!!!!! I am so freaking excited!!! I made a preview of how the movie was going to look like and presented to some coordinators and my supervisor the “Associate Director” of the organization I work for and he was thrilled for the job I was doing. I mean I don’t have experience in a lot of stuff but when I put my heart to it and it just comes natural to do it and working with some new and amazing software I mean IT’S THE BOMB!!! Hehehe (sigh) so now with the program I’m running I get to play with some insane new gadgets I mean what else can you ask for, first there was the digital camera, then a digital video camera, then super new cool software! There is a video editing software that costs $2,200 and we got it for only $160 DOLLARS!!!!!!!!! It is AMAZING!!!!!! Hehehe and I get to play with it oh and if that wasn’t enough there is more coming! (In case you were wondering we got that software that cheap because we are members of a donation program) oh man I am very happy right now! You will be seeing my movies uploaded in here later… so peace people!

OK IT IS TIME!

OK IT IS TIME! I been wanting to write a lot of stuff that is going on with me but I haven been able to do it for different reasons (time, work, inspiration, and energy) but I think it is time to go back on track and show you more about what I’m made of. I called my friend Erik this morning that I haven’t heard from for ages! I told him how bad of a friend he is… hehehe I mean I though we had a really good relationship as friends and all of a sudden he stops calling me? For like 4 months!!! I even called him many many times and he never return my calls (how rude)… he said “is this you work number” (I was calling from work) and I said, “Yeah it is” then he is like “ok, its good to know to stored it in my phone” and the I said “for what? so that you don’t call me for another year?” LOL OMG I like making people’s life miserable hehehe anyway I love Erik but he is getting away from me… Another friend of mine I care about but I lost contact with is Susana M. from the center where I used to work and I really liked her too! (I guess I better call her soon) Once, “el Puchix” told me about how I shouldn’t lost contact with friends and I think he is right I shouldn’t so I’m reconnecting people!

In the past few months lots of things have happen, COCO HAD HER BABY!!! YAY!! And it’s a boy! I’m so happy for her, Victor’s sister Susana is here visiting again and we have had some good times together, (you can see her in the pictures below) it was Victor and I FOUR year anniversary and we are still very much in love. Our house is finally on sale, we are going to sell our house so that we can come back to live closer to the Northside of Chicago!
Mmm I don’t know what else but I’m sure I’m going to think about it and then I’m going to write another update enjoy the next set of pics and talk to you all laters!

AUGUST PICS

AUGUST PICS 2

SCARY STORY???

Neah! It is only Julia making a scary face LOL! I’m glad I got to spend the night with her hehehe we had a sleep over at my house and we watch movies, and talk for a little bit (oh yeah) I was also ignored for sometime because my dear friend JULIA!! Was chatting online in my laptop! (What a loser) anyway I had a really great time! Oh!, also when you see me ask me about the crying story! LOL!

Last Update...

It sucks! It feels like I have been in a sauna de whole freaking day! And that’s because at Centro (my job) we don’t have air conditioning system ugh! Anyway there are a lot of thing that have happen either at me or around me to people that I care about and also to my Puchix, sucks big time!...

Sometimes I only ask my self, what is it that I did wrong? Why do I have such a negative karma around me? I can’t seem to find the answer to that but in the meantime I am trying to meditate and ask the “good” energy of the earth to comeback to me!

(LOL! Oh god, have I really come to this?)

I have been trying to write something here because believe it or not it really helps a lot to do it, I can get things out that are bothering me or just to clear my mind from stupid issues that keep attacking me ({and to those}LEAVE ME ALONE!!!) hehehe

Here are some images of things that I have been doing and some pictures of things I though were nice! Enjoy!

UGH!! BUSY! BUSY! BUSY!

Oh man I have a lot of stuff to get done and I feel like I’m going crazy!! Ugh! I just have a lot of work man! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! buuuu huuuuu!!

The birthday aftermath!!!

Best day of my life! (At least this year) so far… Everything started when Lizzy and I planned a dinner date that we wanted to happen for a long time before, and it was considered for the week of my birthday. Well, due to work-related issues and time availability of all the people that was going to be present the final date was for the actual day of my birthday. I kind of didn’t want it to be on my birthday because the dinner wasn’t originally intended for that but, it happened! And oh man I am so happy it did. I have to tell you what happened, because is so freaking funny! While we were eating my friend Zoe then tells me “Rolo, please sit on the side of the table because I want to give you your b-day present” next thing I see is her talking to the waiter and I was so excited but still I had no idea what was going on! Nice uh? Then I’m thinking in my mind “I’m so getting a cake, that’s why she is talking to the waiter” and I was just waiting for the people that work there to come and sing the happy birthday song to me (I mean is what they usually do) Well then Zoe and Amy stand up and they started getting closed to me and started to say “We were thinking on how we could give you your gift, we thought of wrapping it up, etc and we couldn’t pick one so we decided on this” next thing I know, they started dancing!! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE RESTAURANT IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY!! And I am so surprise because I didn’t know WHAT THE HELL WAS GOING ON!!! LOL oh man well, they were STRIP TEASING!! Yeap! Strip teasing on me!! The took their shirt off (When they just got to the restaurant I notice they were wearing man clothes but I didn’t think they were for me I just thought “oh what the heck maybe they like them” and it wasn’t a big deal) but actually that was my gift… oh I wish you could see it! the people there was laughing I almost pee on my pants I don’t know if it was the killer margarita effect or just the fact that I was laughing my pants off!... oh man (sigh) it was a lot of fun! I am sure that more than 1000 straight man will be jealous of me!
P.S. in case you were wondering, of course they had something under the man clothes!

Zoe is telling me about my gift...!
Strip tease baby!!
OH MY GOD! LOL
People are surprise as well...
I am graciously receiving my gift
The best surprise EVER!!
THANK YOU AMY AND ZOE!
From left to right, Zoen and Amy...
Attendees of the party from left to right: Roro, Favian,

Victor, me, Lizzy, Zoe, and Amy...

PART PARTY PARTY!!

The day of my birthday dinner! Thanks to all the people that were present that day and the ones who remembered and sang happy birthday to me! Cool people! Love to all!

Puchix, Amw, Zoe and Lizzy
Rolo and Lizzy
Lizzy, Zoe and Amy
Tequila Rose shots!!

IS TODAY PEOPLE!!!!

OH MAN! NOW I AM 3O YEARS OLD AAAAAWWWWHHH!!!!!!! Sorry I can’t stop it but it feels sooooo weird!! Hehehe I know it shouldn’t be a big deal but I am leaving my 20’s… oh 20’s I had the best time of my life while you were there with me! It was a year after I came to this city, and in my twenties was when I had my first experience! (Um, you know what I’m talking about), and it was when I came out of the closet!! Oh so many good memories I have, and of course it was when I met the love of my life (I think you all know who he is) well I am looking forward to what is coming for me and I know it will be better, I know sometimes life is not that easy on us, but I guess we just have to make the best of what one faces! (Is that wisdom or what??? LOL) Peace people! 30??? HECK YEAH!!

Lost friend!

I have lost a dear friend! Have you seen her? Her name is Jessica and I know, for impossible that sounds it's true I had a dear friend that I love very much and we used to work together… is strange you know, because I have worked with a lot of people that are my friends now, but either they moved to another state, or they just went to work to another place. Well this dear friend of mine that I’m talking about is one of the ones that just went to work to another place, yes, she still living in Chicago but I don’t see her anymore!! Before it used to be somehow my fault because I had two jobs and I didn’t have time to go out, but now? It has been almost six months since I have just one job and I have time to see her! Yes, I have called her and tried to make her give me a date but all she says is “we have to find some time…” and that time is never found…
Anyway! Jessica I refuse to be part of your past and I will fight to be part of your present! I love you and I will never forget the good times we had together…

Sincerely,

Your dear friend Rolo…

This is Jessy and Me

Today is one of those...

Today is one of those days… Have you ever feel like you are the ugly duckling of the family? Well yeah, this morning was very sunny at first and the sun made me wake up at six in the morning, then I started my morning routine, clean my room, pick up all of my trash (literately), and then go to the bathroom downstairs and shower… everything was alright until a really weird feeling started to grow up inside of me. I felt like I was desperate or something (Am I nuts?? so early in the morning?) then I talked to my mom and we kind of had some disagreements over religion (go figure) I left home and as I was walking towards my car my mom just kept yelling at me. Anyway, the sky turned gray and then started to rain! What the F***! Is this a punishment or something? I know I have to be stronger and not let depression come to me but you know? Sometimes there is nothing you can do, you just feel depress and that’s it! So yeah I am fighting it but I am a little bit down today… As I come to work and try to enter my office I realized it was locked (damn!) and I just wanted to start doing some work so that the day would go fast… so I had to wait until one of my coworkers came to open the office for me since I don’t have a key (what a way to start a day uh?) am I the ugly ducking or what? mmm maybe just different...

Favorite new song!

MI VIDA SIN TI
La Oreja de Van Gogh

Un día más vuelve a empezar,

duerme la luna en San Sebastián

busco café, oigo llover y pienso en ti.

Que guapo estás al despertar,

tan despeinado sin arreglar,

me hace feliz verte a mi lado y pienso en ti.

Vamos a querernos toda la vida,

como se quieren la noche y el díacuando hablan de ti.

Vamos a querernos en cualquier vida,

porque prefiero dejarme morirque estar sin ti.

Nada es igual cuando no estás,

cuando no vuelves de pasear,

oigo reír a mi equilibrioy pienso en ti.

Pienso en ti y vuelvas a mi

vuelve la paz que un día perdí

choque frontal, nadie con vida y yo sin ti.

Vamos a querernos toda la vida

como se quieren la noche el díacuando hablan de ti.

Vamos a querernos en cualquier vida

porque prefiero dejarme morir que estar sin ti.

Te necesito aquí, cerca de mi

muy cerca de mi, muy cerca

te necesito aquí,

verte feliz que vuelvas por mi,

que vuelvas para quererme,

cuidarme, acostarme, hablarme y darme la mano,

un beso,un regalo y verte dormido

sonriente, conmigo y decirque te espero,

que te echo de menos.

Quiero entender mi vida sin ti,

no quiero escuchar consuelos de nadie,

quiero gritar, correr hacia ti,

no quiero entender que al morir me mataste

quiero vivir....pensando en ti

Bear with new toys!!

Hehehe I know what you are thinking (This guy gets excited for everything) and is kind of true. But I mean who doesn’t get excited when one gets new and cool gadgets. At my job, we got approved for a technology grant. Thanks to that I get to keep a TOSHIBA Laptop and a SONY digital camera, it doesn’t get any better! (Well maybe it does!! hehehe) we are installing a new projector in the computer lab I am in charge of, for conferences and for presentations we need to do, or simply for my class. I really get happy when I get to play with new toys ;-)

Here is a thought!

Just why do we lie? I don’t know the answer to that, and sometimes I ask myself that question, it is in our nature I guess… But, something ALL of you need to put in practice when you think you are going to lie is Stop, Think, and then Act…

Peace people! Stop hurting feelings it is not good....

Courtesy of your friend Rolo!

NOT GOOD!

Yesterday I was very happy because I got an ORIGINAL copy of Windows XP Professional for my computer, because the one I had before wasn’t original… Well because I wanted to take advantage of all the new gadgets that are coming out for all of the original operating systems I got myself that software. So I got home, ate, when pipi to the bathroom, and then all happy went upstairs to my computer room happy that I was going to work all afternoon in my most precious computer. Over the years I have built myself a really nice, fast, and super reliable computer with two hard drives. One hard drive is for storage (music, videos, pictures, important documents, and an original copy of software I didn’t want to loose) anyway, the other hard drive is for system files. Over all these years I saved an average of 4000 songs, and 1000 pictures from my vacation trips, birthdays, and just parties I attended. Of course including the ones I have in my BLOG and guess what? GUESS WHAT!!???

Thinking that I was formatting the system disk as I was supposed to, I erased THE ENTIRE STORAGE DISK!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!! My 4000 songs, my 1000 pictures, my movies and all important documents ARE GONE!!!!!!!!!!!! This is fucking unbelievable!! I almost fainted when I realized what I have done… (Sigh) even the most experience commits the most atrocious acts of stupidity (I mean me {moan}) I hope this gives me a lesson and the next time I’ll have an extra back up just in case that I decide to do something like this… The moral of this posting is “Check TWICE what you’re doing wey!” Peace!

What Fruits Basket Character Are You? uh??

I took a silly quiz and this was the answer:

Centro Romero Video

This is a "Slide Show" I made for Centro Romero for its "Cena de Gala" gala dinner party celebrating its 22 years of existance...

It is not a big thing but i think is nice...

Latest Update HOT HOT HOT!!

(Sigh) What can I say, I am here again… after a long time of not writing anything I think is time to do it again… after all it is helpful for me to do it.
Wondering what have I been doing in all this time? Well lots of things… many many things hehehe (I know right? What things I’m talking about?) I can’t be specific but it all involves looking for a job (still) but this time is for real I was kind of just having a big break not working trying to relax a bit, but now I think that break is more than enough…
Couple of new events in my life… My cousin (remember my cousin? Look for the “You? Fat? Diet?” entry on september 2005 and the "2 hours DRIVING” entry same month and finally the “Family after all...” entry of the same month) You will remember my cousin after reading that, well, back to the point, he came back from Mexico and this time he brought with him his fiancé, believe it or not this time I am enjoying him staying at my house, he is really cool and not to mention his fiancé, she is the sweetest girl I ever met (besides “La Chacha” LOL just kidding) seriously though she cares a lot about my cousin and she is really…mmm…. How can I put this? really gracious.
I took a week off from work to have some time to spend with them both, and something really cool is that Victor (you all know Victor) did it too. We have gone to the lake, Millennium Park, walks around town, and of course they wanted to go to malls (which I hate) but I had to take them anyway.
We have been having a good time, talking about our memories when we were kids, about family and just re-discovering our bonds as family…
Something else that has happened is the regular get together with friends; we went to Cesar’s (again!) to celebrate St. Patrick’s Day with our friend Daniel, (Look for the pictures below) and we had a sleep over at Willie’s house we talk, had fun, and saw some movies (to bad I got sick and couldn’t enjoy it as much) (I think it was Willie’s Pulgas… mmmm… LOL) I got to see my friend Erik (Alias super girl) we drank some of Willie’s inventions and had a good time.

Man it feels good to write again, ok so look for the pictures of all the action in my life and I will be posting something soon… take care y’all!

Believe it or not we were singing hehehe

Can you guys see what Roro's sweater says?? (REPUTA!!) LOL

Chilly Willy, La Coco, and El Puchix

My Puchito (Victor)

El Roro making honor to his sweater LOL (Did you get
it???)