Who reads this anyway??

Delusional, melancholic, and mad… Left with feelings of frustration and despair… Trying to find a solution to my everyday struggle to survive… Alone, sad, and unappreciated… trying to find self confidence, strength, love, and intelligence in self… Trying to recover what at this moment feels like lost… Struggling to gain new beings to go along through this journey… trying to figure out and understand why this water seems so shallow and cold… Trying to fit in one category but being left out of the list… Trying to be unique without success… why? Who can tell me… why???