(sigh) ... Here I am

I feel like this is year is going event faster than the last. I remember yesterday was spring and tomorrow is winter again (if you know what I mean)… Every beginning of the year I keep telling myself the same thing “this year it’s going to be better” and then Fazzz!! Things happen. September… oh my… dear September… I feel like I have been working a lot in different special projects, and a lot of the time I feel underappreciated…

I thought August would be the last busy month for me but I was very wrong! On Sep, as some of you know I worked and fundraised money for our organization and that was just a lot of pledging preparing and coordinating for the AIDS walk, which was not the only big and “special” project I was working for, besides the AIDS walk, there was the open house a week after the walk. And then comes October with a big gift! Let’s make SURVEYS everybody! (I have to coordinate four people including me to do 400 health related surveys) and finally because of my BIG mouth the haunted house… (sigh) Some other things not good happened… Do you remember her?? She was supposed to have gone to a good house, I knew the person that had her and she was nice and even gave me the feeling that my baby was going to be in great hands… She even was the one that I was happy where she ended… but one never knows… After last month flooding around Desplaines I received a call from this person… First thing she says is… “Rolando, I’m afraid I can’t take care of “Osita” anymore” I asked what happened and she said her house got severely damaged by the flooding and that there was no way of her being able to have a pet anymore… she added that she didn’t have time because she went back to school and her kids were at school… blah blah blah…

I immediately without thinking about it, told her to just give her back to me that I would take care of her… I was super sad when I saw her for the first time since I gave her away… I really thought she was in good hands… Osita was, super skinny, wouldn’t trust people (bit me four times), was full of lice, oh man… in general in bad shape… Almost a month after she is one of the most loving, caring, and sweet dogs. (With a little twist lol!) I think she is getting used to us, and to the way Candy and Bonnie are trained now…
Osa doesn’t bite anymore (only barks a lot!) and she is getting healthier by the minute hehehe my intentions where to find a loving home for her (or at least try to) but mom is super attached to her now and she wants to keep her… oh well our family just got bigger hehehe

Talking about my mother… Three weeks ago she gave me the scare of my life. All started with her complaining with a discomfort on the left side of her chest and she would complain of running out of air sometimes… she also mentioned that this “thing” she was feeling was mostly at night…
First we didn’t think that she had nothing serious but three days past and the discomfort grew to pain and she started to not get sleep at night… on night six she woke with a super strong pain that made her cry and that’s when I knew something was seriously wrong… she has been taking strong pain medicine for her arthritis and other conditions she has, at first I thought she was having a reaction or something… poor my mom didn’t sleep that night because she said she was afraid one: of the pain and because it came stronger while she was sleeping and two: because she was afraid she wouldn’t wake up. Well first thing in the morning a called the doctors office and made an appointment. When at the doctor he told us that we shouldn’t be there, that at my mom’s age chest pains are only to be taken seriously… and that’s when I started to get more anxious and worry about what was going on, the doc immediately sent us to an emergency room, I thought everything was going to be alright and it was going to be nothing serious, my mom was even arguing with me because she didn’t want to go to the hospital for several reasons… but there was something inside of me that wanted to know what was going on…
Well we went to the hospital and as soon as we were in the registration room and the nurse was checking her blood pressure everything went like a flash! They (nurses) got me out of the room, put my mom on a wheel chair and took her in the ER right away… … … now… as I’m writing this I’m realizing how affected I’m still are by this… I’ don’t know if you have ever felt like this but… the feeling of strange people taking your most beloved being on the world away without knowing what’s happening, it’s horrible… I admit it! I am a chicken for these things…
I cannot and will not ever be ready to loose someone I love so much, specially my mom. One of the nurses told me that I had to wait at least 15 minutes before I could go in to see my mom to the ER room the put her in. 45 minutes passed and they wouldn’t let me in, until I for the 100th time asked them to please let me in to see her… The whole experience was just a nightmare… we were told my mom was having a heart attack and that her condition was serious and she had to go through some tests to see if her heart was having other problems…

The next day she had an Angiogram but it turns out that right there the doctors found one of her major arteries almost completely blocked and they had to intervene immediately… The diagnosis was Coronary Artery disease. My mom stayed six days at the hospital due to some complications but now, I am SO SO SO grateful to have her home. Things like this really make you realize how you most of the time if not always, take life for granted… One thing is for sure… we spend much more time together now… and I love it hehehe

Thanks for reading, and again I really wanna thank my friends for being there for me… this specific event in my life made me appreciate you even more, my love, my gratitude, and my unconditional friendship will always be yours… Peace! Sincerely, Rolando