tired

even tho no one reads this I juts wanna bitch! hehehe
I am tired, feel lonely (one of those nights) I don't have a reason to feel lonely but I think I have some type of depression of middle age madness lol anyway...
today my brain found itself trying to figure out what's my goal in life, why am I here? what am I doing? and I hope I start making some sense soon...
also, I work in a very interesting place... I mean VERY interesting place, where it seems most everyone have some "type of issues" their own, big personalities, moods changing by the hour etc... sigh I am going crazy... all I want is work, work and not worry about you and if I offended you...
my back hurts... I think I'm developing alcoholism, Im drinking a lot.... tequila... it makes me feel more relaxed... sigh
anywho... yeah...

stop and stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shaking off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh

Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see


They're trying to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

It has been a really long time ( I think I said that last time) but this time it really has been. Since I posted something on here...
I am definitely going to make it a habit of me posting, writing, and just re-start my love for venting on blogger. hehehe i mean if there is no other way of doing things i don't why not?
Besides my life is pretty interesting sometimes to not write it somewhere and then come back months later and laugh about...
It also might sound sad, be it is not. I mean I know I'm not alone but sometimes it pretty darn feels like I am.
Nowadays "true friends" are hard to find. and I mean I have had some pretty harsh things done by people I thought were my friends and at the end i come to find out they are not...
I have the iPhone app "Path" and there is this guy that bitches about every single thing all the time, and is just blah blah blah after blah!
I dont wanna be mean but its true and sometimes i just get tired of it... i thin is ok to do it in blogs (like me) HA! but not in a social network app where it seems like all you are asking is attention and pity... sigh... thats it.. I am a bitch... anyways... HI!! there will be more to come... :D

Finally!

I'm so happy there's finally an app for blogger! I'll be able to blog away now!

I am number 76

important

RECOGNIZING A STROKE

Remember the '3' steps, STR . Read and Learn!
Sometimes symptoms of a stroke are difficult to identify. Unfortunately, the lack of awareness spells disaster.
The stroke victim may suffer severe brain damage when people nearby fail to recognize the symptoms of a stroke.
Now doctors say a bystander can recognize a stroke by asking three simple questions :

S * Ask the individual to SMILE ..
T * = TALK. Ask the person to SPEAK A SIMPLE SENTENCE (Coherently) (eg 'It is sunny out today').
R * Ask him or her to RAISE BOTH ARMS .

If he or she has trouble with ANY ONE of these tasks, call the ambulance and describe the symptoms to the dispatcher.

NOTE : Another 'sign' of a stroke is
1. Ask the person to 'stick' out their tongue.
2. If the tongue is 'crooked', if it goes to one side or the other that is also an indication of a stroke.

Travis Mccoy – We’ll Be Alright Lyrics

We are young, we run free

Stay up late, we don't sleep


Got our friends, got the night

Well be alright


Tonight you wont be by your self-self

Just leave your problems on the shelf-shelf

You wont wanna be nowhere else-else

So lets go, so lets go (we got the club like)


and all the girls sayin ooo

the whole world sayin ooo

yeah, yeah, come on lets

Get drunk, toast it up, we dont give a fuck


We are young, we run free

Stay up late, we dont sleep

Got our friends, got the night

Well be alright


Throw our hands in the air

Pretty girls everywhere

Got our friends, got the night

Well be alright

F'd up!

Things finally got a little bit out of line, out of control, or just out of place… however you want to call it (sigh) it’s been soo long since I felt this way.

I remember when I started writing on this blog was because it was the only way I could get things of my chest before they drove me crazy. After that (when I stopped doing it) my friends “circle” grew and I found other ways of getting frustrations out etc.

Well now I am at the point when I feel like I cannot tell anyone anything without being worry that they are going to stabbed me on the back! Talking about being paranoid, wassup with that!?

Then I start having nightmares about demons following me trying to get me and it only goes back to one thing… I gotta effing stop thinking too much about it… I trusted someone, got to love him, thought he was my friend, back stabbed me (real bad), I caught him, and he goes like nothing in the world happen…

What would you do in this situation? Am I just making a big deal out of nothing? Am I being a drama queen?? What the F!? not even a sorry… woah… nice…

Sigh…

Rolo, out!